Thoughts Of A Sleep Deprived Mom

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Sleep, what a topic! It’s common knowledge by now that when you become a parent sleep becomes a distant memory. Most people dread this part of being a parent because it is one of the harder things we have to deal with physically. When you are pregnant with your first baby people tell you what to expect, but expecting doesn’t prepare you for the physical toll. Some people think ‘I’ve been without sleep for a few days, or maybe a week so I will be fine’ but the loss of sleep could last for YEARS! Tom always liked to say “I used to work 36 hour shifts in the hospital without any sleep. I’ve done it before and I’ll do it again”, but he conveniently forgets that he did it 20 years ago!! Lucky for him I did 100% of the night care with Audrey and I’ll do it with the next baby too.  It’s like being anorexic, only with the zzzZZZ. Parents are ‘sleeporexic’! If you don’t eat properly it will take a toll, just like not getting adequate sleep. Who can function without sleep? Well parents try, what choice do we have? I’m at the point now where I’m always tired. I love the idea of getting a nice restful sleep, but it never seems to happen. My hubby is wonderful at letting me sleep in (9am) on the weekends, but my body isn’t. My mommy brain has to decide between sleep and getting something done. Do I want to take advantage of an early bedtime or wash another load of laundry? Most of the time I choose to get something done. Sometimes when I get a “normal” amount of sleep it makes me slow all day. It even gives me a headache! So I long for more sleep but when I get it I don’t feel well. Ahhhh long gone are those pre-baby days where sleep was plentiful. Being a parent is a new phase of life and lack of sleep is part of it. I do miss the pre-baby days, but those days came and went like they were supposed to. I don’t feel like I let them go too soon, timing was great. It doesn’t mean that I don’t drool when I imagine how easy sleep used to be.

Camping In Our Home

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Well today is officially one week since we have been here in Texas. Unfortunately Tom had to go back to Denver so Audrey, Baron and I spent the first weekend here all alone. I have been finding it increasingly difficult to camp in this house. We have an air mattress and a pack and play, plus suitcases with clothes and toiletries but not much else. We brought some basic cooking utensils……not enough. I’ve been to Wal-Mart almost every day since we arrived. I hate buying things that I know we already have like foil or cleaning supplies, but it seems like I’ll have to. Our pods were packed up last Friday the 14th and picked up Monday. I guess they just arrived in San Antonio on the 19th. I am HOPING I get a call tomorrow to schedule a Tuesday delivery………….. Our timing was just so off for this move. I want our stuff to arrive before I go insane. Tonight I bought Audrey some markers to color only to go home and discover that we had NO PAPER! The most frustrating part is probably cooking. I don’t like eating out too often, but I start cooking a meal only to discover that I have no spatula or a can opener. Lord PLEASE send our stuff to our new house Monday or Tuesday. I have to make mashed potatoes and a banana berry pie for our family Christmas dinner in Houston, BUT I DON’T HAVE ANY SUPPLIES! I saw a $14 mixer at WM tonight that I may go back and buy it. An up side to all this is buying new furniture! We bought a bedroom set and a dining table. Tom also got a new car wohoooooo. I guess after 4 months of moving and living on the basics I’m anxious to get everything back. I’ve already forgotten half of what we own….. Good thing there is a Goodwill donation center down the street. I have a feeling we are going to be getting rid of a lot of things we didn’t know we had.

Happy Second Birthday Audrey!

Audrey turned 2 on October 4th. It’s funny because so many people across the world wish her happy birthday and they’ve been apart of our life since she was born…….most of them we’ve never met! I love having blog family! This is the life Audrey will be familiar with. When she makes friends in school she’ll think it’s weird that her friends DON’T have viewers all over the world who know them. This will be her normal because she’s known the blog world since she was born. It’s so cute too because she knows how to take my camera and start filming. She loves to take selfies at the moment. I love flipping through the pictures on the camera and finding her selfies haha. Sometimes she’ll zoom up so close that you just see nostril or eyeball. What a fun year it has been. Audrey went from being a cute 1 year old baby to a running, jumping, talking toddler. I really enjoyed this last year because she just grew up so fast. Every week she picked up something new. I must give Dora The Explorer a lot of the credit! Audrey has learned so much from watching that show. The last 2 weeks I have been seeing more glimpses of the “terrible twos” and I am scared. She’s a lot more…….bipolar now. Tantrums are just around the corner, well at least with me. The funny thing is, she’s a different baby with other people. I’ve noticed that she is the most difficult for me. I just don’t understand it, maybe its because I’m the person she’s with 99% of the time? She is definitely better behaved with others, even Tom.

We decided to have Audrey’s birthday here in AZ. Most of my family lives here and we thought it would be nice to let them celebrate with Audrey. Since she is now no longer a lap baby I don’t know when she’ll see them next. Tickets are just so expensive so it was nice when she was a lap child. We came back to AZ to visit quite often. I can’t even count how many times Audrey has been on an airplane. I wouldn’t be surprised if it was close to 100. We’ve flown with this girl since she was 3 weeks old. I remember she was pretty easy to fly with during breastfeeding, but once she started to crawl it was pretty rough for a while. She really never liked anyone holding her so once she figured out how to move on her own she didn’t want anyone to touch her. Luckily after a few months it got better because she started to be more distracted with food and kid shows on the ipad. But at 15 months she started to become difficult again for a while. The ipad would bore her quickly and she couldn’t entertain herself by coloring or books yet. Now at 2 years old flying is still rough but I am looking forward to having my own seat! It’s hard with a lap baby. You always have to be on your A game and you can’t relax at all. The last couple flights have been really bad. She hates being strapped down and she bores easily so a plane is basically torture. But then set an independent baby on her parents lap for a few hours and it’s amplified times 10. She’s had temper tantrums on the last 4 flights she’s been on…..yikes. I hope she’ll grown out of the tantrum phase soon. She’s really good at them…….but I’m equally as good at ignoring them.

Oh our sweet baby girl isn’t such a baby anymore. I can’t say that I miss those “baby” years yet. I miss parts of them but I wouldn’t want to send Audrey back in time. I just enjoy her so much at any age. Its so much fun to have conversations with her now. I can understand about 30% of what she says and it’s just adorable. She’s repeating everything she hears. I love when she copies “Oh Man!”. But then that also means we have to be very careful with what we say around her. Tom has to really watch it because he doesn’t filter his bad words well. She’s already picked up the lovely 4 letter word that starts with S and ends T from him. She hardly ever says it though – thank God. It’s so nice that I can say “I love you” and she’ll say “I love you too momma” AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. So cute!

Our Little Audrey Is One And A Half!

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18 Months already! I can’t believe how fast these months have gone. The last 6 months our baby has quickly grown from a baby to a non-stop toddler! She’s GO GO GO NAP, GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO BED! She is a very active little toddler now. She is constantly into something she shouldn’t be. She’s got a very strong personality that is equally as sweet. She loves to cuddle but she cannot be distracted if she has her mind set on something. Lately she has been saying “High Five!” and giving high fives all over the place. Her hair is curlier that ever and she doesn’t let us touch it! She has 3 teeth coming in at the same time on top. At the moment she has one fang on top and two middle teeth on the bottom. Tom likes to call her “Fang Baby” because she has one tooth on top to the right. Audrey is a super stubborn little girl! She’s the friendliest baby I’ve ever seen. We were walking around the museums here in DC and she will walk right up to a group of people and say “HI!”. She doesn’t even look to see if Daddy and I are following her. She will see a family and she’ll just join them and start following them and we have to snatch her back. It’s so funny how she completely skipped the STRANGER DANGER phase. In our hotel lobby there was a lady standing in the corner on her iphone, Audrey saw her and ran away from me to meet her. She walked right up and said “HI” then she gave her legs a hug! I have to admit that we love how cute and friendly she is. I prefer this over an anxious, paranoid child any day. Audrey has really grown up the last 6 months, and even though I’m sad to see her get older I am enjoying this phase quite a bit.